the comforting thing

Through all of my dating woes, there remains one thought that has become my source of comfort. This thought:

I don’t have to date anyone I don’t want to, and I don’t have to spend my life with anyone I don’t want to.

When it comes to dating, I end up worrying too about whether or not I’ll find a companion with most of the qualities I find attractive. This ends up being discouraging, because honestly, most girls don’t fit the bill. That doesn’t mean there aren’t tons of great girls out there who would be great for the many guys out there. It’s just that I’ve discovered that I’m mostly bored with the lot of the females out there, and there are a precious few to whom I look for companionship. Most people call me “picky” because of this, but I don’t see anything wrong with not settling for less than what I expect out of life.

That’s not to say that I look for perfection. Far from it. I recently learned how to love unconditionally, despite imperfection. What a great and hard lesson to learn. Anyway.

I’m not sure I’ve quite gotten across what I wanted to say here, but just be content in knowing that it provides me a great source of comfort these days. It’s easy to let oneself latch on to one person because you think they are the end all, be all of what you could ever want in a relationship. When it doesn’t work out, it’s discomforting to think that your one chance at relationship perfection is lost. That’s where this comforting thought comes into play for me. The next time I’m in a relationship, it’s going to because I feel for that person the way that I have previously felt for only a select few people in my life.

I don’t have to settle for a girl who’s around for the sole purpose of just being my girlfriend.

Because I don’t have to.

And I won’t.